After while!

Posting is not a job, it's just like a feeling which comes back to me after years again, to say that my mind was too busy to write again, but now I feel better, just I do have a concern, it's about the new she! Sure to get trouble with the X! Sure to face the big matters in the rest! But you know!? I really don't look to put myself under inconvenience!! Take a deep breath! Take the lighter, smoke the last day sigarret! 

And finally ! ..

em' finally choose the second option! YEAH right .. going to get ready to go to ARMY ..
hehe .. As I told I'd really like that but I just don't know what to do with my company, the only thing which I have after 8 years of hardworking, I also could get some degrees from university.
Now I'm going to plan B, going to Army and finishing that, growing my company and transferring my whole life out of this crappy country, it's going to be the worse every day.
I wish that the plan B works, I'm going to buy a house in just a few month and it'll make me very happy.
The GF is now the EX! cool babe cool .. it'm free up right now and there is no body out standing to kick my ass :P.. now I do not really thinking about one another girl till end of the army but after that I'm going to have a relationship again .. but nobody knows about the tomorrow(even thought I which I could!).
See yaaa after the Army :) ..  

Wher to go!? What to do?!

I'm going to finish my study in university after like 8 years! yeas after four years just to get undergraduate .. 8 years in Esfahan, usually alone and after this years I just know to work! I worked hard indeed but the problem is that there is no money at the end of this 8 years hard working times! seems like that there is also no university degree too! .. f**k the whole life if just a word and that's FUCK...
I'm now planing for two things or maybe three.
The first one was suicide! :), actually I was planning to do that but I had just a fear and that was "what will happen if I can not do it successfully!?" I know it's very dummy decision.
But the two other ways!
I have to go to Army! yeah I'll be a SOLDIER :) YOU know I love it :D
There is just one thing and it's my job .. the company I have stablished after 8 years, I know I can not continue with that and now I'm looking for to sale my company and buy a house then rent the house, going to Army and after the Army I want to go abroad(hehe yeah I'll be free free free after thattttt) for the rest of my studies, for this purpose I have to buy the house to have the budget to go abroad and I think with my little budget the India is the best idea for now and also it's one of my favorite countries !
And The way two is (if the university accept me to continue with my studies for under-graduate) I'll continue the studies then I'll participate in the "konkor" Exam for the rest of studies.
As you saw there is nothing about working! yeah I'm going ahead to lose my job opportunity :(..
Tomorrow I'm going to apply for the Army ...

I Don't Love LOVE Anymore

I Don't Love LOVE Anymore...

I don't love LOVE anymore
It has reared its ugly head
Euphoria is gone, Pain is all
Was my momentary Happiness real?

I don't love LOVE anymore
It has deserted me
All I see is Misery
Was my momentary Happiness worth it?

I don't love LOVE anymore
I don't remember what it is like
It must have been a dream
Did I truly have Happiness with it?

I don't love LOVE anymore
It doesn't exist
It is a lie
Only SORROW is here…

If u don't like the way I'm driving then get back on the interstate

Just different!

Ohhhhhhhh after days ... after moths .... after years. .. and after centuries ... it's kinda most different .. yeah I swear it's really different sense, but it's just different and nothing else ... dammit I'm laughing, I'm crying ... oooh crap .. oohhh my sweet .. here is two sides ... where am I !? it's my new question!! everything is tempting... tempting .. tempting ... dammit

NAGGER!

There was some little nagger slut.
Now I feel fucking free of any kinda annoying bastard!